we haven’t a room to spare but we have

a visitor, no wait, she never


I wanted a room to spare

as a grade school child I ruled

recess, how a bell tower gets rung

but no one

comes, this is a mistake, I

cried into the phone, come

back, again

the light switch dangling

between us, I put the

cracked agate there &

instead of adopting a name for what

doesn’t arrive, poured out the human train

when I don’t have

anything to come home to

I let my finger get caught

inside the train door

was only trying to pull

my tote bag through, I have

proof, but you won’t

will you—

when I am alone it’ll be just

like you & you & you




am first off better with the sea—

suppose we were dreaming together

& after our water-weights were

removed we sprung-up

higher, the probability

of this is the opposite of false

if men came close to conditioning love,

if men lose power, men not attended

to men if no mother

go more animal, more neutral

human, akin to strength &

a willingness to survive, they

don’t care if they don’t have to

            know about their feelings

if no urge to connect, no connection

can be made







                                                            semantic willingness

                                                            to survive, if ghosts were among

                                                            men, a creature isn’t even negotiable






went into the manic theater

& walked out the last 10

minutes of the movie, that’s how

much I didn’t care & didn’t

know if someone besides me

could ever be so un-invested


                                    quickly clung to abnormalities

                                    as a way to describe obsessions

                                    but then when I’m lying into the

                                                sink I know what has shown


                                                cannot leak blood

                                                straight through skin


been brokenhearted but it

took years to sort that out

was always too tough & had too much

anger to identify particular

emotions, as if sorting

through the cluster fuck

could become a therapeutic

party, a click on training wheels

can’t quite master the balance,

sometimes in bed

think about

how much I

want out of my situation

then can’t imagine my life



certainly wouldn’t be more happy

or more willing to share a future

just feel hammered around the curtain

an enclosure, a flap, a blue panel of

sadness, sometimes I worry I won’t

ever be able to forgive &

with that we do not part ways but

follow one after

the other

onto a









s             h      i      p


in parallel

                                                dimensions & competitive infrastructures

cross a big channel &

am parted by shame

sometimes I’m wind

to write

to redeem my flaws

to buoy up above them

s  k  y     s  i  l  k  e  n     i  o  n

winded by the tumultuous path

acquired by chance—

I don’t believe in fate—

I’m not heroic enough


guided by patience of seminar—

w/o the way to z, I could have never arrived at A—

as the written word has become

all I know of communication

no room for anything different





dissonance association, new waves of thinking, parallel memory, escaped a vulgar ritual, meta-silence, infrastructure, collapse, political manners, ladies and gentleman, this reeks of humanness, small gift shop, chinaware, free public access, boats in the marsh, Lady Hawk tattoos, cheering sports fans, marriage license, cat call, pubic bone, industrial wasteland, handkerchief, grandstand, gangly arm, little racecar, mountain man, marijuana, fuck the bride, lazy security guard, pot holes, street gems, pinafore and bonnet, bottle rocket, socioeconomics, world peace, banners of pity, lion's mane, borderline schizophrenia, mail man, machine gun, metal cuff, pop a cap, insanity, special meanings, Charlie Rose, best actress, microwave popcorn, cornrows, pimp my lipstick, sweater socks, denim backpack, beach ball, Labrador, Alfred Hitchcock, moonbeams, St. Francis hologram, dusty eves, radio labs, ease into a scenario, popsicle gumball, Harry and the Henderson’s, radioactive dinosaurs, only child on the trampoline, eager to be trained, marshmallow costume, lacking proper etiquette, ham and cheese, ninja clouds, The Matterhorn, Chose Your Own Adventurer, brisket baby, the tabloids, root canal, Errol Morris, crime scene intercourse, polyamorous relationships, lunge cat, golf course, mobile pharmacies, androids, honeysuckle barber, gym clothes, cheap whiskey, Saturday night trivia, Bob Hope, Frisbee comatose, anybody listening, stressed out Santa Claus, picture of a brown bear, reluctant use of energy tablets, reading about wine, breaking into a banker's house, Robocop, friends o' mine, earthlings and their children's children, free mignons for all, some odorless suspension, can't see straight, drop-kick the wrangler, free ranching lessons, only able to achieve, blessed knees, circumcision, Gettysburg, ordering French fries, wrestling stewards, land plots, belly flops, Tennessee, eating ice cream, celebrate domestic partnership, let loose, hand-gun, staging potential arguments, sterile victims, receding hairline, brick palace, drive-thru ATM, special operations, jelly bean butthole, shit on a watercolor rainbow, organize an earthquake, laughing forever, having an episode, dancing culture, angry papa, rework a Venn Diagram, bowl cut, Wheat Germ, Henry Kissinger, listing failures, attempts at poverty, ramshackle, beaded hoop, Laundromat, epic database entry, vintage spork, butt plugs, sky blue lithograph, flannel pajamas, Thursdays with Lenny, margaritas and fish tacos, fantasy island, record collections, various categories, sold-out Top 20 Spring Jams, hotdogs and donuts, lily pads with toads on them, Chevrolets dodging moose, goose chase, shards of glass in your tonsils, slit-open to find fairies, naked Twister, beat your sister, handcuff the doctor, bring in a clock, organize a recital, drill sergeant and captain crawdad, reading Party Knife, royal crown teacup, London's affairs, chapel music, standard blood tests, finishing a sentence, caught up in contemporaneity, old metal horse, baking regime, fight-off craving for pork belly, warding off evil spirits, believing everyone's a ghost, renting a pretzel cart, pushing sauce, hang-gliding over Machu Picchu, gateway canal, fast track through high school, renting an apartment in Ithaca, the modern marginalia, frosty toes, gee willikers, no moth tins, perfect day, vagrant clay, endothermic needle, industrial timer, barely an obstetrician, salary alone, can't stand this day, walk with me, passage of time, manmade flying saucers, urban Tupperware, graffiti on the fire escape, free my beer!, stand with me eagle, judgment day, Apocalypse, graphing Porte Au Prince, little Virginia, off the coast of Mexico, motorcycle mania, foster kids, bull ring, perfect cloud, ideal vision, climate control, free the president, watch me make soup, garden this alleyway, will work for freedom, barely chlamydia, almost angry at the mayor, student loan debt, shit on the department, cry then wrestle a whale, will sit on the bus, willing to poop on planes, starts in herds, liminal support, drag racing phonetics, Gary Lutz, cancelled the bomb, Grease the Musical, start to shine, stomach of steel, passed-out runway model, slicken the road with custard, half-way house, beetle me too, fun booty call, flamboyant designer, fashion is my thing, drink all day, lifeguard away, pinprick a navy seal, hoity-toity, listen this call came from 911, oh shit it's the grits, diamond Thermopolis, John Berryman, enormous cock, rattlesnake potion, miniature garden gnome, piano lessons, wooden arrow, collector's items, moving day flagrance, fuzzy navel, suckling nursery, let us go softly down with no broom or brimstones


                                                to break out of habit

engrained in ridiculous affectations

that carry

no meaning

a prolonged death when it is one of stoning


                        the pigeon-holed queen, what mutton shall we

                        cook tonight? I want to be

                        rescued by the Dali lama, or at least

                        tended to neck & grain—

                        fraudulent myths of the dynamic brigade

                        sleep, fuck, eat— remember


when that was


            THE LIFE

Paige Taggart lives in Brooklyn and is mactaggartjewelry.com and the author of Or Replica and Want for Lion.